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Camp
02:34
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Let’s lay under the summer camp blanket
The black one that fell
Onto a barrage of pine needles
And got constellated into a million pieces
Speckling our sleep with myths of yore
Let’s breathe our stifled air
Through the million tiny pricks
Bringing tiny gasps of outside sky
Into our lungs
Try not to get pierced like the blanket
Or burned by that otherworldly rough
If you do,
The nurse has aloe vera
To soothe away the wound
And there’s always the river
For washing away your past
Sunburns from “real world” sins
Let’s skinny dip into summer camp oblivion,
Leaving our black socks on the shore
Not yet, not yet, not yet
Instead, we’ll unravel their yarn
Into miles of crooked black line
Winding through the hiking trails and creeks
And knot friendship bracelet goodbyes
From their mess,
To then toss back up
Into the waiting expanse of
Our blanketed summer camp night.
Which scraps of that sky
Would you trace together
To pass down your story into the depths of time?
A camper once told me
The three specks of Orion’s belt
Found singularly
But bringing the rest together.
She was twelve.
I, twenty-one, don’t yet know
Which myth to leave my
Memory to decay with
So, please, constellate my arm
With the outline of a Cactus instead.
At least I know where I’m from
And where my past has root.
Please, don’t use the blanket’s pine needles,
But instead that needle you keep nestled
In a pencil eraser,
Stealing its power
With the permanence of India Ink.
Yes, bury my skin in the young adult novel act
Of getting a stick and poke at summer camp.
Let’s run away from the kids into
Our summer camp blanket
And nestle into our after-dark names
(Cact-ass)
Fall into puzzle pieces whose edges
Become worn to strangers
By the time kids awaken
And the camp director’s eyes
Graze across our actions.
Summer will fall to autumn
And school will eat away these times
Into the cooling, dying soil
But I will take home my summer camp blanket
To warm myself with summer memory through
The long, summerless winter,
Imprinting my “real world” moments into its starry patterns
To decorate next year.
I will tuck you in with the night, whispering that
This is goodnight and not goodbye.
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man made me
just as I made man,
exploding into the dark of early human ignorance
and pulling them into their age of
humanity. my lilting fingers
are ticklish with power.
man packaged me
with gasoline center, metal head,
held in a tiny plastic tube, pink,
for playing pretend with control
with child hands ignorant that my flame is
a beginning.
you bought me
to play with fire,
to torch cigarette ends, for those who
aren’t afraid to ink their lungs with cancer,
like you are,
guarding your lung’s pink tissue as gold.
you light me
with minute click and spark,
and remember the idea of gas,
sampling ancestral discovery.
you graze the possibility of danger,
with clean lungs and jittery, distant fingers.
you leave me
burning in isolation,
rotting, useless in the dark confines
of the bottom of your purse.
i am accustomed to fighting the dark, but here i am
untouched, unlit, undone.
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Soapbox
02:08
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Sad Little Space Boy
02:13
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5. |
The Train Romantic
01:37
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Troy
04:37
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The MAX is terrible when there is Timber games…I’m pissed cause timber fans make MAXs go slow. So I’m going to be late to the movie.
-Andy Terhune
Troy, whose beard caresses his plaid shirt,
is a writer sans writing, proud owner of a computer,
the computer on which he’ll write his great screenplay
sometime later today, perhaps after coffee and lunch.
Troy, whose beard caresses his plaid shirt,
wants to write his great love story about Penelope,
the ex whose sign is taped above his glorious computer, saying
“Don’t call me when you’re drunk anymore, Troy.”
Her handwriting is impeccable,
and Troy finds it hard to concentrate when looking at her “o”s.
Because of the “o”s, Troy falls ill with writer’s block
and drags his beard and plaid to a theatre downtown
for a movie that will inspire him past the note,
after which, with some coffee, he will craft his masterpiece.
Troy boards a blue line MAX train toward downtown Portland
and jostles elbows with sardined Timber fans off to today’s game.
Troy, exacerbated, huffs mightily at their spirit,
so mightily that his moustache flies up to tickle his nose.
While his beard below continues to tickle his plaid,
he manages to sit down: the soccer fans excited on their feet.
The MAX lumbers through the city, heavy and slow with the labor
of choking on millions of Timber fans,
who board and board and board, past the point
where space is the idea of an option.
Troy dozes, dreaming of checkered black and white,
rolling through fields of green and gold at Penelope’s feet,
when suddenly he is awakened by some heavenly harmony
wafting through the stuffy scent of pit sweat to his gaged ears.
Troy, whose beard caresses his plaid shirt, pushes slowly
through the crowd towards the music, and wonders
competitively, if anybody’s heard of them before.
It is a three-part rendering of the Timber’s fight song.
As the singing gets louder, he can see the women from whence it comes,
and they are beautiful in their Timber’s jerseys.
He interrupts them to complement their voices,
and the three fans giggle as they ask him if he is going to the game.
And Troy, whose fucking beard caresses his fucking plaid,
Tells them yes.
They bathe him in green and gold paint,
which they have on infinite hand,
and take off his plaid to cover his bare chest—save for tattoos—
in a giant, golden axe, grazing the bottom of his beard.
They harmonize the fight song around him, and Troy soaks in it.
He even starts singing himself, boisterously, taken with gusto.
Suddenly, the MAX doesn’t seem so slow anymore,
as he is whisked away with the Timber fandom,
to the holy cathedral, seating for 22,000, called Providence Park,
of which Troy has only ever heard lore.
Today, though, Troy enters the holy cathedral,
chest blazoned with golden axe, and lungs filled with fight.
He sits with the MAX women and rises and falls at their queue
in the ritual communion of the wave.
Troy, whose axe caresses his beard,
feels in the arena. Excitement, adrenaline, anger.
Troy feels true love, even when his lover loses.
He loves, maddeningly, the violence which loss gives him.
He leaves as a bull, realizing his strength wasted on his computer,
and runs, blindly, into an eye-patched Red Bull’s fan,
Remembering his strength and anger at the red bull painted on the man’s chest,
Troy punches him in the face, begging for a fight,
only to have security take him out into the brisk night,
telling him he is a nobody. He is a writer sans writing.
Troy, whose golden axe rests against his beard,
Sits on the gum-stained concrete for a moment, looking at the stars.
He pulls out his iPhone to call Penelope,
but his fingers only dirty the screen with green paint.
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Hands
01:55
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How many more years
Have your hands lived than you?
You live encased in
Mountains and hills of smooth sandstone
Forested with hair’s pines
Down which your salty sweat
Takes ski vacations
Until falling into the canyons and valleys
Of your shrivled, wrinkling
Hands
How many centuries did it take for
Your sweat to carve those grooves?
As many as it took the Colorado to
Love the Grand Canyon miles into
The ground?
Which love ground you miles into the ground?
And shrivelled your hands into
Five fingered, gnarled stumps
Contracting around pieces of the world
To bring into yourself
How many experiences slipped through time
So quickly that your hands
Wore themselves into age
Trying to plant them to root
And clutched so hard at the bark
That they were left ravaged by splinters,
Plowed to rows ready for seed,
But just missing the growing season.
How many words have breathed past
The flaps in your throat
Extracting your inside into the world
--Just as your hands bring the outside to you—
Do those chords ever tire
Of being shaken, rattled, scraped
Into building the triad of cohesive thought
Inspired by that etheral tonic in your mind?
Is what lies behind your mouth
As old as the ends of your arms?
Wrinkled beyond the other organs
More creviced than even the heart,
For your heart, experience is
Priceless art in a museum
Ripe with emotion
But no touching
How many years does the subjective ad
To those body parts
Pining for the love of
Dance partners
Constelated into the other
Side of the universe?
Probably as much as
The river knows a canyon
The mountain knows the sky
A lover knows another
When breath passes back and forth
Between lungs, past vocal chords
Over a pair
Of clasp and wrinkled
Hands.
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