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French Beds
01:48
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The first thing to spill today was the morning’s coffee:
unraveled from the sheets that fill the nooks and crannies
of this new double bed,
it fell from the mold of a mug’s grasp
to the flatness
pressed between gravity and open space.
To sleep on your stomach is healthier, I hear,
to lift your spine to cold night air on the offering
of your lungs’ insistence that they are alive.
A lifelong side-sleeper,
I am letting my limbs crawl into the corners
that this square mattress offers.
Twin rectangle dimensions
have always asked me to fill them in
with the lumps of my flesh;
I find myself falling flat into this new life now where
I spilled the milk from my cereal onto the floor
quickly after the coffee incident.
This goddamn breakfast is in my bed,
it is on the floor,
in the grout,
in the pores of a sponge,
(later) kissing the cold spoon against my lips,
it is in my stomach.
To French kiss is to fill
cavities,
to let the heavy muscle of your speech crawl outside
of its own cave into
the stalactites and mites of waiting teeth. This French bed
has but one visitor, small and lost in its space.
Why, I wonder, have I crawled away from America
into these jaws of abroad,
but to fill air
with the bragging undertones of past experience
(perhaps while pressing spine into the warmth of a stomach,
my lungs keeping tempo with life
stacked one on top of the other, like always)?
I bookended today with a dinner of spilled rice
all across the kitchen floor,
newly cleaned. Packed so close together just a moment ago,
they look so small when they are unraveled
as a collection of ones
nestled across these nooks and crannies.
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2. |
Never Having Seen a UFO
02:24
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A Letter From the Pig
02:37
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they call me a pig
with my snout married to marred mud made of
the corn that midwestern soil toiled over
to turn dirt to gold to turn over to the fattening act
of making pigs.
like you, like the others, like we all
squeal about the shit found in the mud called home,
the shit which leaked into this mire from
the corn that made the feed that fed
the fattening that made ourselves:
it is all but a cycle;
i have seen your likes before,
like an archetype,
like a cliché,
like a history,
like a present,
like the chicken-coop mesh walls you build around men
when calling them animals
to watch from the other side, using your two legs as a tower
above that snout called other,
this is not me,
this is an animal farm,
this is a poetry,
let the parables swath you up in the white veil of the bride
who wears her virginity brilliantly on the color of her sleeve
edging on the cliff that begs for falling.
i have never seen beyond a pig pen,
i have never picked an ear of corn from a field
or an apple from an orchard,
i suckle what falls from any human hand
that forgets that its purpose is to hold
until i can take my rest from eating
and lay down on your table,
next to the corn,
my dried snout holding, itself,
the curved edges
of some crisply-picked apple.
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A yawn is a gasp
A yawn is a grasp-
ing to steal the life of the street to pour back into lung
A yawn is a yank that
y’all misunderstood, sitting there
on brick meant for walking
Ass to street, my foot to step
Your gaze longing,
I did not want to inhale your words
or fall into your grasping want
as my breath threw me forward
into narrowed streets
through the confinement of rib
cage
Like the hold vous avez volé à moi
when you ask for me to lay
Coucher,
You say,
Avec toi.
Bed me
to a mattress square.
This yawn cannot inflate
enough.
I cannot stretch myself like latex
for the air needed
to slip my body out of slackened grasp
up up up up up up
off into that hulled bowl turned upside down
on this city
to keep our scurries to and fro
boxed in by the skeletal bars of a rib cage
or the hairied knuckles of the masculine clasp.
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5. |
Columbidae
03:04
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My dove in the clefts of the rock,/in the hiding places on the mountainside,/show me your face,/let me hear your voice;/for your voice is sweet,/and your face is lovely.
Song of Solomon 2:14
The French apartment that the pidgin fell into
was already a museum of sound and sight
when he painted its clutter in frantic gray streaks
and hummed his music of soft panic by beating air
into the gasps of his human audience.
He seemed so peaceful in
his bringing outside
in.
A pidgin and a dove are nothing but language,
nothing but choosing French or German,
wild and domestic nothing but perspectives on control,
columbidae is but nomenclature meant to umbrella
two words in between
the choice of one or the other.
I would imagine Columbus
to be the namesake for the term,
his story one of seeing wild and seeking domestic:
he understood so well
how asserting ownership
can ease the transition from unknown
to imagined familiarity.
The English woman whose name I cannot remember
wanted to keep the pidgin for a pet.
Since leaving England for France,
she has missed her garden pet menagerie
(something like nineteen in total)
that this one-room apartment could never hold.
One small window may offer a tunnel between the sky
and the body heat of enclosed human space,
but a tumble in is just a momentary leap
before the gravity of an eviction out.
Today, this bird is no dove.
Invading another’s space not a peaceful act:
this is France,
pigeon a French word,
just like art
just like music and perform
melody, harmony, rhythm.
This language that feels caught between a stone in the throat
and the swoosh of its whisper out
gave the English in this room—
who speak with potato mouths—
words to dance their fingers along the necks
of the guitars hanging on the walls.
The French invented photography,
giving this English couple the power
to make the world stand still
with their cameras sitting on the shelves.
It is all a choice of wording,
it is all a harnessing of sight
it is all a control of sound,
this act called creation.
The pidgin originated in cliff rocks
before man moved into its home
and sealed the earth in pavement
built to serve bread crumbs to birds
just before setting our children loose
on their flocks to drive them away,
like a catching from the kitchen
to throw back out the window:
My dear columbidae,
please,
show me your face.
let me hear your voice
its sound so sweet,
its owner
so lovely.
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6. |
Arizona Highways
01:08
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You sit me in front of the school where I work
and tell me to count down till midnight when
its security lights will turn off.
Inside, there are boarding school students waiting
to creep into the night’s covers,
like those laid across the mattress
of some princess who is remembering that crowns
are but costumes for the head
for the skull
for the gutters of a brain.
Your hands have had a busy night, I’ve noticed,
crawling through barbed wire to pick roses
not for me, but to stuff into the cracks of street light polls
in between the roll of a cigarette,
its caress of your mouth,
its drowning of your lungs,
while I stand at an arm’s length away
(hands themselves making up this measure for distancing).
Watch for lights out
and you can spot the glow of the end of contraband cigarettes
in the framing of a darkened window.
There, that window in one portraits two ends,
two, like us, ending in ten
fingers meeting to make twenty.
The painting of us is an inversion of theirs,
two dark figures held tight against the yellowed pool
of street-light
gazing up at a painting in fire made against a shadow,
two adults falling into the unknown of the other
while considering
the confidence of the youths upstairs.
You say that when you went here,
people would take blankets into the corners of the amphitheater
and give blowjobs in light’s retreat,
while I lead you up to lay your hands to rest in my room
for the night.
In the morning, where did you find time
between yanking the sun up
and dying its glow with early-morning smoke
to hide sugar cubes in the dark of my dresser
as a reminder meant to burn through the early morning haze
that my goodbye kiss threw you into?
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8. |
New Year's in Paris
02:03
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The last time I had a hang
over this bad must have been six months ago in Portland.
When the summer camp counselors gathered together
in that beautiful craftsman home to hang
socks on each other
like wintertime Christmas trees under the blanket
of a slow summer’s night in the thick of the year, and I
woke up under the dining table with a stack of poetry
journals for a pillow, face
to face with a couple spooning against the china.
But poetry is more column than cuddle, a stack of sentences
divided, apart, one atop the other instead
of hooked up side by side.
A book is but a stack of pages bound together for strength.
A year is just a pile of days.
A tree a collection of rings
chasing renewal’s possibilities one year at a time.
Forests an anthology of trunks dizzying themselves with
growing fat round and round and around again the past
until man presses them skinny again
to stamp their faces with his poetry.
and all I see on Paris’s face are circles,
an agglomeration of arrondissements pirouetting around
each other to make a city in Spirograph,
one that is perfect for stumbling through, overjoyed
by the lightest of snows while the minute and second hand
circle around the watch’s face toward midnight to divide
one day from the next
in this business of making new, to say then
and there. Here
and now.
Those were socks
and this is snow.
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